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Saturday, June 18, 2016

Fractured Life...at the Moment

Last week, I did something only I could do. I broke my left knee. I sort of "saw it coming" because I knew it was not good form to sit with my left leg under my butt while watching TV. Oh, but it was so comfortable... Anyway, little by little, I started feeling pains in my left leg and I knew. Big deal. Give it a couple of rubs of  whatever is the big selling analgesic and I'll be fine.
A couple of days later, the pain got worse so I thought I'd just turn off the TV and go to bed. I got up from my chair and took one step with my left leg and heard/felt the biggest "POP" ever! I immediately couldn't use my left leg and slithered back towards my chair. I saw my cell phone about two feet beyond my reach and managed to throw my belt at it and slowly bring my phone to me. I know, I know...at this moment I'm thinking "Help! I've fallen and I can't get up!" but like those people on TV, I didn't have anyone to yell to either!
Thankfully, I was able to call my next door neighbor Jessica. She's been friendly to me ever since she moved in and I was hoping she wasn't going to mind the incredible imposition I was about to try and hand her. I called her and before I could even get the words completely out of my mouth, she was standing in my living room--still on her phone with me!!
She rushed me to a local ER where they did x-rays but couldn't tell me what they showed. What? All they really did was give me an immobilizer for my leg, told me to keep it iced and gave me the number of "some wonderful orthopedic surgeons."  In the "old days" a person with broken bones were kept in the ER for hours waiting for the orthopedic doctor to get there, prep one or surgery and take care of business. Not now!
I was graciously escorted outside via wheelchair to wait for Jessica to pull up to the patient pick-up so I could go back home. Oh yeah, I got a nifty pair of crutches as another parting gift! On the way home, I realized that I as probably in more danger at home with this fracture than I was when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I'd have to learn how to walk on crutches, maneuver around my messy home and do all of the activities of daily living all by myself. Well, now I have a friend who is willing to help me...Jessica.
Once again, all my plans are at a standstill. Can't go to church, couldn't go to Bible school, can't go to yoga classes, can't do my volunteer work...none of it!! I have to be careful, follow orders and hope I get "back to normal" in less than the four to six weeks they tell me it will take.
I'll tell you one thing, this FOMO thing I keep hearing about...is starting to become real to me. I never really took my life for granted but I'm certainly missing stuff now!
In the grand scheme of things, this isn't so bad. It certainly could've been worse and for that I am grateful. I am also grateful that I have a friend that will drop nearly everything to come to the aid of not only me but others. Jessica is a rarity.
But I'll be fine as long as I stay out of my own way, do what I'm told and have plenty of books to read! I was hoping to put on my dancing shoes July 1st--my birthday--but I guess I'll just have sit and "put my crutches in the air...and wave 'em like I just don't care"! Gotta find some humor in this, right?
So instead of saying "Have a great day," in honor of this past weeks' Tony Awards, I'll just say "break a leg!" I DID!!!

16 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear about your knee, and I hope you will take a slow-but-sure approach to your recovery period. It's certainly a good time to get through a few of those Bryson books. Please keep us updated on your condition.

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    1. I have read "Walk in the Woods," "I'm a Stranger Here", "...here nor there" currently into "The Thunderbolt Kid" and looking forward to "...Small Island." EXCELLENT READING!! Any other books you want o send...I'm grateful!! As for me, have a toe to thigh brace and I have to apply ice almost continuously! Anytime I try to overdue...my knee stings as if to say, "Not yet, Silly. Not yet!"

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  2. Wow! You are really devouring those books! Pay attention to all of those stings, as they are sending messages for sure. Keep on the mend. Did you read my comment on your previous blog?

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  3. Yes! I read your comment and loved it. Thank you for the encouragement. The blog I am working on is very personal to me and I'm having trouble dealing with the subject. My knee situation put me down a bit and in that time I've been almost tortured by my desire/fear of what I want to post next. Life has a way of showing me things that I thought only happen on TV. I've wondered "Why me? Why do I have to know/see that?" but like the 2004 Red Sox used to say (I'm paraphrasing) "Why not me?"
    I'm recuperating nicely and taking the stings seriously.
    Again, thanks for the comments on my previous blog!!

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  4. I hope your knee heals properly - in due time. The beauty of blogs - and diaries - is that one has little or no need to be fearful of whatever literary topics come about. Let them come straight from brain to paper/monitor.

    Afraid of being judged? That's just a part of life. Haters gonna hate.

    You keep cruisin', don't stop movin', it's gonna be alright.

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    1. Help me! I have a new computer and I cant access my blog to make other posts! I need to blog and I put way too much effort to lose it. Please help me "Muse"!

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  5. Surely, I will help. What do you need me to do? How can I help you access your blog? (I don't know your password or username.)

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  6. all I ever do is type dyanelody@blogspot.com and the list of entries display. Then I click on the new post and write. Could it be this new computer I'm using? I really do not want to start another blog. Ilm proud of the one I have! Please help

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  7. Yes. Your old computer saved your password. (Can you remember it?) You have become used to just clicking in on your old computer, and you have not put your password into your new computer, and you have not told your new computer to save/remember your password. Do you still have your old computer? Maybe you can look on your old computer and retrieve your password. I bet you can remember it. You probably use the same password for many websites.

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    1. I have done everything I possibly can to be able to start posting again on this blog but still can't!! I have followed every direction from Blogger/Help Forum etc., and yes, I got my old computer back and nothing works. All I reall get is this message that "we have sent your password/login info to you gmail account..." but it never arrives. There is even a notation that I have to get permission from the author to be able to blog!! I haven't given anyone admin. control to my blog so I can't post. I'm running out of options and losing hope. I don't want to start another blog because I like this one...it allowed me to "meet" you! But I'm losing hope! Help!!

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  8. Look for their emails in your junk/spam folder, in gmail.

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  9. I guess you're gone. I keep looking for a reply from you, but it's been over 1 month now. Please reply - if you're out there. :)

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    1. I'm back!!!!! Replying as requested!!! Read me soon!! lol

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  10. I am here my friend. Email is dlody@yahoo.com Keep in touch! Please! I'm not gone, I'm trying to get back.

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  11. Still trying to get back to blogging. Having a lot of trouble. Hang on tho!!

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  12. I may have to start another blog. If I do YOU will be notified 1st!!!

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